I will never forget that day in May the day of our friends funeral, at the time I was about 16 weeks pregnant and we hadn't decided if to start sharing our news to other than our very close friends and family. I remember coming out of the crematorium we were all standing out side together. As we … Continue reading Walking Down the Aisle
Halloween is or should I say was one of my favourites time of year. I loved anything to do with a day where dressing up in ridiculous outfits is acceptable! Last year I couldn't wait to get Violet dressed up in her first Halloween outfit she would have been at the time only 3 days … Continue reading The reason I ‘dislike’ Halloween
11 months have passed some days it feels so raw some days it feels like it happened so long ago.This time last year we were getting excited and ready for the arrival of our new addition to the family. 11 months on we are dealing with grief and heart ache. When I look back at … Continue reading A Reflection On The Last 11 Months
Why is October so important? October marks the month of pregnancy and infant loss awareness it's also Violet's birthday month.1st October 2018 it seems to have come around so quickly. This morning when I realised it was the first of the month it hit me like a tonne of bricks! I saw a photo which … Continue reading Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month
I may have shared this photo several times I forget that this day in October last year I was severely ill and nearly died. The reason is because I had Sepsis.Looking at this photo it most likely shows you a different picture. Sepsis kills more people, each year, than breast, bowel and prostate cancer combined. … Continue reading The Hidden Killer Sepsis
I'm further down my journey now so why cant you see how beautiful my daughter looks and how happy i was to become a mother not the sad side to the story? I've noticed one thing recently that everyone focus's on the sad story of a photo not what the photo is. For instance I … Continue reading Why Do You Always See The Sad Story?
A subject that divides the 'normal' people and the 'bereaved parents'. "You need to move on and be happy" it's been 9 months now and grief is still there isn't hasn't yet packed it's bags and said good bye. It won't, not ever. A massive set back for me at the moment is feeling like … Continue reading When You Feel Like You Can’t Be Happy
July is Group B Strep Awareness Month For those of you who aren’t aware of Group B Strep this is an infection which can be carried in pregnant ladies and can cause serious illness to both the mother and baby if left untreated. This photo was taken not long after I had given birth, after … Continue reading Are you Aware of Group B Strep?
In the UK, 1 in 4 pregnancies will end in miscarriage, stillbirth or premature birth. The emotional impact this has is devastating and leaves parents with so many unanswered questions.I can honestly put my hand on my heart and say I find social media really upsetting whilst going through loss. Now this isn't a 'thing' this … Continue reading The World of Social Media
Happy 70th birthday NHS Although I am currently trying to change the testing for Group B Strep as they didn’t provide me with one or information whilst pregnant and signs for Sepsis. I wanted to say a big thank you to the NHS for providing me & my husband with the amazing midwives that looked … Continue reading Happy 70th Birthday NHS