When You Feel Like You Can’t Be Happy

A subject that divides the ‘normal’ people and the ‘bereaved parents’. “You need to move on and be happy” it’s been 9 months now and grief is still there isn’t hasn’t yet packed it’s bags and said good bye. It won’t, not ever. A massive set back for me at the moment is feeling like […]

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Are you Aware of Group B Strep?

July is Group B Strep Awareness Month For those of you who aren’t aware of Group B Strep this is an infection which can be carried in pregnant ladies and can cause serious illness to both the mother and baby if left untreated. This photo was taken not long after I had given birth, after […]

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The World of Social Media

In the UK, 1 in 4 pregnancies will end in miscarriage, stillbirth or premature birth. The emotional impact this has is devastating and leaves parents with so many unanswered questions.I can honestly put my hand on my heart and say I find social media really upsetting whilst going through loss. Now this isn’t a ‘thing’ this […]

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Happy 70th Birthday NHS

Happy 70th birthday NHS Although I am currently trying to change the testing for Group B Strep as they didn’t provide me with one or information whilst pregnant and signs for Sepsis. I wanted to say a big thank you to the NHS for providing me & my husband with the amazing midwives that looked […]

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How Do You Tell Someone Your Baby Died?

When a person passes away from old age you expect and know what happens, we get old, we die. It’s blunt but there is no words because that’s what’s supposed to happen when we have a wonderful life and get old. When a baby dies at birth it’s totally different, how do you go on […]

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“How are you?”

Since becoming a mother and a bereaved one I feel that no one wants to understand what it’s like to walk in our shoes and of course you don’t, you don’t want to know what it’s like to have something every one else has got or have that missing piece cut out of your heart. […]

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Having A Purpose

What’s your purpose in life? Is it to survive in this world? Or is it to put food on the table, work are arses off for that holiday, house or new car? Provide for our family’s? In life we aren’t told what purpose is ours someone doesn’t say to us your purpose is this and […]

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Returning to Work

One of things I had planned in my mind was that I would be returning to work by March. Although it would have only been 4 months on I was determined I would be going back and leading a life of ‘new normal’ not only for me but to prove to myself and make my […]

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How’s your baby?

Where do I start, there is actually no words to describe the pain. The pain of not having my baby by my side. How’s your baby? Errrr ‘I had a stillbirth’ the words I’ve not wanted to say for such a long time ~ is it acceptance that Violet has gone? Yes. To help me […]

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To speak or not to speak

A post on society’s actions whilst grieving & social media If you saw me in public what would you do? Would you say hi? Would you ignore me? Would you walk over and hug me? Would you cross the street to avoid me? Would you ask how I am? I know what I would do […]

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