I will never forget that day in May the day of our friends funeral, at the time I was about 16 weeks pregnant and we hadn't decided if to start sharing our news to other than our very close friends and family. I remember coming out of the crematorium we were all standing out side together. As we … Continue reading Walking Down the Aisle
Why is October so important? October marks the month of pregnancy and infant loss awareness it's also Violet's birthday month.1st October 2018 it seems to have come around so quickly. This morning when I realised it was the first of the month it hit me like a tonne of bricks! I saw a photo which … Continue reading Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month
I may have shared this photo several times I forget that this day in October last year I was severely ill and nearly died. The reason is because I had Sepsis.Looking at this photo it most likely shows you a different picture. Sepsis kills more people, each year, than breast, bowel and prostate cancer combined. … Continue reading The Hidden Killer Sepsis
I'm further down my journey now so why cant you see how beautiful my daughter looks and how happy i was to become a mother not the sad side to the story? I've noticed one thing recently that everyone focus's on the sad story of a photo not what the photo is. For instance I … Continue reading Why Do You Always See The Sad Story?
July is Group B Strep Awareness Month For those of you who aren’t aware of Group B Strep this is an infection which can be carried in pregnant ladies and can cause serious illness to both the mother and baby if left untreated. This photo was taken not long after I had given birth, after … Continue reading Are you Aware of Group B Strep?
Happy 70th birthday NHS Although I am currently trying to change the testing for Group B Strep as they didn’t provide me with one or information whilst pregnant and signs for Sepsis. I wanted to say a big thank you to the NHS for providing me & my husband with the amazing midwives that looked … Continue reading Happy 70th Birthday NHS
Since becoming a mother and a bereaved one I feel that no one wants to understand what it's like to walk in our shoes and of course you don't, you don't want to know what it's like to have something every one else has got or have that missing piece cut out of your heart. … Continue reading “How are you?”
What's your purpose in life? Is it to survive in this world? Or is it to put food on the table, work are arses off for that holiday, house or new car? Provide for our family's? In life we aren't told what purpose is ours someone doesn't say to us your purpose is this and … Continue reading Having A Purpose
One of things I had planned in my mind was that I would be returning to work by March. Although it would have only been 4 months on I was determined I would be going back and leading a life of 'new normal' not only for me but to prove to myself and make my … Continue reading Returning to Work
Where do I start, there is actually no words to describe the pain. The pain of not having my baby by my side. How's your baby? Errrr 'I had a stillbirth' the words I've not wanted to say for such a long time ~ is it acceptance that Violet has gone? Yes.To help me through … Continue reading How’s your baby?