Giving Birth To Our Sleeping Beauty

I was so nervous, I was so nervous about giving birth I don’t know why as I’d built myself up for this day and prepared my mind with a variety of techniques, I’d done breathing excerises and hypnobirthing most of the way through my pregnancy which was meant to help. This went allll out the […]

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Colour Of A Rainbow

Violet Esme YOU are our special little girl who brought life into this world you shine your love and touch so many hearts, you are the colour of a rainbow. We see you when it rains and when the sun is shinning. I don’t know if you were giving us a sign I remember seeing […]

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‘Others’

For the ‘other’ people in my life Someone said to me recently ‘you always think of others’ your right I do I not only think about myself I think about every one else too. I put myself in there shoes and my own, I try to see it from both sides, from my side the […]

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That Funny Little Thing Called Grief

Coping with grief & the “not knowing how to approach it situation” the subject no one wants to talk about Grieving is something that happens no matter what when a loved one is lost, in our case our daughter. Something I hoped I would never have to feel and something which we will never just […]

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From a Mothers Perspective

I wanted to write a post from a “mothers point of view” mainly because I’ve been feeling like I blame myself I’m pretty sure that this is normal in some way. It isn’t my fault I got Incredibly ill, I didn’t choose to have an infection that most people carry, I never chose not nearly […]

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The Words You Never Want to Hear

October 2017 ‘I’m sorry there’s no heartbeat’ The moment our lives fell apart and our hearts were shattered into a thousand pieces within minutes. This the part of my story that no parent ever wants to here let alone go through, its been difficult to write these words, its acceptance that Violet is no longer […]

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Putting on a Brave Face

November 2017 Its only been just over a month, some might say its to early yet to tell but from previous grieving experience I know I may need help and its ok not to walk around with a brave face on its also ok to have space from the world. The one thing I do a […]

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Quote ‘PMA’

PMA Positive Mental Attitude A quote a swear by and a quote I swore by when I was pregnant (well most of the time unless I was feeling exhausted, grumpy, hungry and like I could strangle every person in sight!). A positive attitude is something that got me through most days, every time I felt low […]

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Every One Has An Opinion

Something I realised when I was pregnant that no matter who you spoke to everyone had an opinion, some good some bad. You’ll be sick all the time, you’ll get fat, you’ll be tired all the time, you should do it this way, you need to rest all the time, your doing too much, you […]

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#teambanham

February 2017 – When #teambanham became 3

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